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When life throws you lemons, you make a cocktail.

Or better yet for us writers, we can say plot twist and move on or at least try to in the moment. In 9 days my summer will be over and I will be heading back to the classroom for the 2019-2020 school year. Crazy, seems like just yesterday I was closing the door to my old classroom and heading out to enjoy my time off. Fast forward 8 weeks later and here I am. It will be nice to get back in the classroom teaching the kiddos how photosynthesis occurs.

I really was able to relax this summer and enjoy it unlike before. The kiddo and I got to go swimming, hit up the local library, enjoy snow cones, and do whatever we wanted. I did write some, started some news ideas, and played around with a new series that is completely different genre, but mostly worked on editing JS and my other mystery series. No schedules, no routines, no worries.

Then two weeks ago, I got some crappy news while I was visiting my dad whose health was struggling due to his Parkinson’s. The old me would have made that thing into a dress and sported around my woe as me tales. This sorta ties into the news that I got last year around this time which currently I am not ready to discuss yet, just know it was a BIG PLOT TWIST that is the big inspiration for Books 3 and 4 of Jean Stone. I have grown and learned a lot since then including with my breakdown last year. I am not ashamed to admit that and if anything I hope it helps others to see that it is OK to ask for help. I have come to terms with my mental health and work everyday on it. All these flashbacks came flooding into me which use to spawn the negative voices to rear their ugly head along with you are a failure series.

But this new me saw it as an opportunity. That night the crappy news came, I immediately went to town on a game plan. Messaged a few people for advice, set out a list of things to do, and ideas to run by my legal team AKA my family. The next couple of days brought a shift in the news to some good and bad which was more manageable, but I had to make some tough decisions on the future of my writing which I am happy to say is working out better than I could hoped for honestly.

For starters, I am NOT going ANYWHERE. There will be some changes, but it is all for the best for everyone involved. I am hopeful I can start making some announces in the next few weeks, but only time will tell. Just know that what I thought wasn’t possible last year, is slowly starting to fall into place. A dream I had mentioned a few times could soon be a reality for me.

Stay tuned…….

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Summertime

And with the ding of the last bell and a hug from my principal, Friday was the end of the school year. This morning I woke up freaked out that I had overslept! HA HA!

I woke up this morning to the words Just Be. Life has been so busy, but I have been troubled. Something wasn’t right, but yet I couldn’t put my finger on it. End of the year exams, STAAR, illness, injury..which was the issue or was it all the above. Two weeks ago, I started a Dedicate yoga challenge with Adriene. Look it up, you will not be disappointed. Something to do for me, to calm my mind as the demons of ADD had been showing their ugly head even with my medicine. Vertigo was a problem I was battling as well due to an inner ear infection, but I wanted to work out in the comfort of my own home in case I fell. Not sure what the disruption was, but I knew I needed to calm my mind and listen. And of course he shows up when I least expect him….

Then God spoke, JUST BE!

What? But I start school next week and I have all this stuff to do. JUST BE!

Ok Lord, I hear ya loud and clear. With that, I have cleared my plate again from all outside distractions, put school on hold, and followed his words.

Am I disappointed? Sure a little, but there is something out there better for me to be apart of. So, I have no idea where it is going to lead me, but for now I mediate, wait, and listen for him.

“Inhale the future, exhale the past.”

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