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Mid-Summer

The summer is flying by too quickly for me. On one hand I have loved getting to spend a lot of time with Lily. We have gone to the library, played games and gone to the pool escaping the Texas heat. Even took a mini vacation to San Antonio for a few days which was awesome. On the other hand, I am ready to get back to teaching. Remind me of that when I have just finished spring break and my kids are crazy! I have many cool ideas this year that I can’t wait to implement. Changing my room up just a little for some fun and adventure.

I also have been back to my writing. Now I refuse to set any schedule for myself and when I feel the desire, I go to paper. I had to redo my unnamed series to send back to my publisher for consideration. At first, I wasn’t going to do it, but then I decided to give it another look over. To my amazement, the story is writing itself all over again, bigger and better than I could have hoped for. There is no pressure, no competition, it is just me and pencil developing a story that would be great for all ages since Jean Stone is very adult oriented. I already have some beta readers ready to read.

Today I uploaded pictures from the book party to my social media. It was nice to look back and relive that night all over again. Friends and family were there to support me and watch as I got some surprising news that I will reveal late this year, early next year.

A year ago I started this crazy unconventional journey. I have discovered a lot about myself along the way. I have grown, changed for the better, and learned a lot about the writing world which can be brutal and unforgiving. But here is the thing, I am me. I write because I enjoy the outlet to escape to an unknown world for a while. I write to show my daughter that anything is possible regardless of age or gender. I write because I enjoy it.

Now head on over to my Facebook page, www.facebook.com/jeanstoneseries to check out the photos.

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It is ok not to be ok.

Some days I have to remind myself that it is ok not to be ok. You see living with Adult ADD is a daily struggle. Many days my medicine and my routine keep me balanced, but since the start of the summer when I am suppose to be relaxing, I find my mind bothered by the stillness. See change doesn’t mesh well with me, I thrive off routine.

That is the way my brain is programmed, idle hands are the devils workshop. I am reminded to just be, but Lord knows I struggle with that everyday. I do my best to read, crochet, even do word puzzles, but sometimes that is not enough for my mind and it forces me to keep up and do something constructive.

So far, I have cleaned the house from top to bottom, laundry, and even purged the house of a bunch of junk that we don’t need anymore from our numerous moves, but yet still the brain goes ok what is next….

Lately, I have thought about going back to writing. Maybe just to play around and see if I still have the drive, the desire. I started 2 stories before I walked away. One was Jean Stone Book 3 (Lots of truth in this one) and another was a romantic love story based loosely off my husband and I’s relationship.

Here lately I have had some people talk about Jean Stone and “how they love the story”. “I just finished the book, is there another one.”

As I reminder Book 2 should be out this fall sometime. Fingers Crossed

For now, I gonna sit and stare at these two notebooks before me. Should I open them and continue what I started or no. Hmmm, guess you will need to wait and see……

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Summertime

And with the ding of the last bell and a hug from my principal, Friday was the end of the school year. This morning I woke up freaked out that I had overslept! HA HA!

I woke up this morning to the words Just Be. Life has been so busy, but I have been troubled. Something wasn’t right, but yet I couldn’t put my finger on it. End of the year exams, STAAR, illness, injury..which was the issue or was it all the above. Two weeks ago, I started a Dedicate yoga challenge with Adriene. Look it up, you will not be disappointed. Something to do for me, to calm my mind as the demons of ADD had been showing their ugly head even with my medicine. Vertigo was a problem I was battling as well due to an inner ear infection, but I wanted to work out in the comfort of my own home in case I fell. Not sure what the disruption was, but I knew I needed to calm my mind and listen. And of course he shows up when I least expect him….

Then God spoke, JUST BE!

What? But I start school next week and I have all this stuff to do. JUST BE!

Ok Lord, I hear ya loud and clear. With that, I have cleared my plate again from all outside distractions, put school on hold, and followed his words.

Am I disappointed? Sure a little, but there is something out there better for me to be apart of. So, I have no idea where it is going to lead me, but for now I mediate, wait, and listen for him.

“Inhale the future, exhale the past.”

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Just Be

For weeks I have lived in the peace in the moment of my decision, but I find myself wondering why all this to get here. I mean do not get me wrong, the man upstairs knows what he is doing, but did I really need to go through all this to finally find myself and my purpose.

I am not a in the moment tattoo getter person, but when I signed the contract for my 1st book I wanted to document the momentous occasion by having my logo tattooed on me so that I would always remember. Fast forward to now and I was disappointed in myself. Everyday I was seeing this tattoo stare back at me as a reminder of my failure, or what I was perceiving.

I told my husband just the other day of all my tattoos, I regret this one and want to get it covered up ASAP. He said “There is nothing to be ashamed of, it is to celebrate your accomplishment.” Right, to me sadly, my book has been nothing, but a failure. Many people have told me that they loved it, but it was crushed in the writing world as being subpar, career ending, a travesty. Don’t get me wrong, I have thick skin, but geez. Maybe a little constructive criticism would be nice.

For weeks I having been doing my devotions daily, trying to listen to God for my purpose and where I am suppose to be. Am I listening? Did I miss the call? Am I on hold? Can you hear me? The last time he spoke, I heard loud and clear like a principal using a microphone for a crowd. Finally, I stopped stressing and let God know I am here waiting and ready to listen.

To my surprise, this morning while I was in the shower it hit me. It was THERE all along my purpose, I was just looking at it the wrong way. Looking down at my wrist what I first saw was Jean Stone, but when I really looked to see, it was me. The magnify glass shows an apple, my calling as a teacher. Finally, I truly see and feel my calling as a teacher, not that I didn’t before, but deciding to surrender to what God has in store for me is wonderful and nerve wracking all at the same time.

At the end of this month, I start my Master’s. Although this is gonna be the hardest thing I have ever done, it will be rewarding in the end to better myself for my students. For now, I go back to packing as I prepare to head to Vegas this weekend to celebrate my 36th Birthday and my 15th Wedding Anniversary. Hey who says I can’t take a break?