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Guess whose back?

Guess my indefinite hiatus ended up being a short mini vacation. Nah in all fairness, I truly believed that I needed this break to be able to reevaluate myself and my life. I needed this time to put my priorities in order and get my life out of the chaos and into some sense of functionality.

As I noted before, Master’s school didn’t work out for me. No matter how much I tried, nothing seem to fit. Everything just seemed off. I was trying to be excited, but you know that voice in the back of my mind was screaming at me…”HEY WAKE UP” So I walked away actually relieved in the end. To my surprise, our school gave out raises that were more than if I would have gotten earning my degree. Life has a tendency to throw things like that out at you and then you look back and see how the planets were aligning for this to happen, you just needed to drift, wait, and obey.

When school ended, I figured I would just lounge at the pool, read books, and take naps. Let me tell you I have been doing just that for the last few weeks. It has been GLORIOUS! After my last 5K, I herniated a disk in my neck to which lead me to yoga. Now let me tell you, this has been my god send in my life. Daily I go to the mat, meditate, and find myself. It is my time to work on me. Here I have learned to love what I see, spread positive energy, and find a balance in my life. When I started Yoga with Adrienne on YouTube, I had no idea just how much this would change my life, but it has and for the better. I look forward to finding my daily inner goddess and continuing to work on all parts of me, body, mind, and soul.

So since I walked away for a while, I didn’t think much about writing, but it kept popping up around me. People saying how much they loved the book, when does the next one come out, are you writing again, etc. Even the last day of school my principal asked if I was writing this summer. I kinda pushed it away because I was not ready to deal with that just yet. Honestly, I had lost the ability, the creativity was gone.

Last week, my mom randomly asked me for copies of Jean Stone. I keep a few stashed away. And she sent a message…I do hope you continue writing.

At first I pushed the thought aside, but then I started wondering could I write again? My books stashed in my bottom dresser drawer began to be noticeable again. Then all the negative feelings came back in my head. And for the first time, I told those thoughts to go to hell. I am creative, I am a writer, I am an author. They only person I have to please is myself.

So I brought them back out and the words began to flow freely. Where this will lead me I do not know, but I look forward to the adventure and joy of continuing to write and publish my series.

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